Family life stock-take

The last few days have been really mad days for me. Driving around Singapore just to buy hardware and prepare for the home renovations. For someone like me who only venture between west and central part of Singapore, travelling to the east is a BIG thing...besides trying to grasp the complicated little lanes around Joo Chiat and pacifying a fussy baby in the car, I had to hold my cool when the driver (who spent most of his time in hospital lanes than on the road) missed his corners and turns...

Today, I felt like it was the tipping point. After sleeping for a straight 10 hours last night, I was more physically refreshed. But alas, I never had my "mental"break. From the moment I stepped into office, it started again...I had to juggle the renovation enquiries and my work. I really don't enjoy this.In the end, I was totally tired out and with loads of pent up frustrations for me and Iain, it simply exploded into a psychological warfare over dinner.

After the "sleeping prince" and "sleeping little beauty" settled in bed a few hours ago, I tried to steal some time and relax my mind but it didn't work. The list of "undones" and "to dos" keeps coming back to my mind. Sometimes I wish I'm like the man in the house - just work and earn money . Being a woman is much tougher (in my opinion) : work, manage the home, nurture the baby, plan for the household, manage repairs/renovations...the tasks are endless. Who says having maids will solve all housework problems for women? Men are just too simple-minded sometimes...

During moments like this when I feel the tipping point, I would ask myself seriously the meaning of marriage and family. It frightens me when I seem to notice a longer list of cons and pros for being married. Perhaps, the value of marriage cannot be quantified by a simple equation of pluses and minuses. The true value will only be unlocked through time...when both go through the highs and lows of life together. For myself, being married for 2+ years is nothing, compared to the couples who have stayed married for decades...

For now, I know I need to learn patience, especially during this period of time when we are on another "big project" together again. I try to remind myself these are the early days of my married life and I still have a long journey with this "sleeping prince", so RELAX!