How Motherhood has changed me

Something happened at work today that really made me realise how much motherhood has changed me. This afternoon was the fateful one where all of us will find out how things will change for good or for "less good" in the office. With a change in top management, a new board, a new direction, there was so much tension and anxiety. Somehow when chairman spoke about HR changes and plans for better family life balance, my heart missed a beat. This was my chance (or only one) that my message could finally get through. (after speaking to bosses during every of my appraisals). I do not know where I had the courage...I just jumped on the chance and spoke out about the need to explore flexi-work arrangements. I couldn't imagine I was so calm when I presented my thoughts.All my colleagues were stunned. No one would imagine (even though most wanted it badly) that someone would dare to bring up this matter on such "uncertain" times.Let alone from someone like me, someone who's pretty reserved compared to the rowdier ones...

I guess that's the marvel of a mother's courage. Ánd a mother's love for her family and her children. Definitely I haven't witnessed the extent of such love as the comforts of our lives here have never pushed us to extreme limits in life.

But I've learnt something.Motherhood has made me stronger and wiser. Not so much about where to get the best discounts for home items ( I still can't convince myself to travel to faraway places for good bargains) or how to bargain with the veg seller.

It has made me learn to understand more about the value of life and relationships. And definitely to see personalities at a deeper level and to take life easier.

Maybe this is what they say about the big 3 too - women are getting a clearer view of their roles in their families and career, only if they allow themselves to lay down their own wants. As the society has always advocated for women (especially women who have spent years slaving away with their books in younger days) to fight for their wants like career advancement, higher pay, more branded labels, own property...

Truth is - all these will never be the "living waters" that quench women's thirst in their search for their identity. Instead, when women live as God made them to be- helpers of MAN and GUARDIAN of their family, then can they truly feel the peace and happiness that comes with the sense of identity and purpose.

So my decision pointers for any shifts in my career will anchor upon the key roles God has called me...Will any change make me a better helper for my husband and a more loving mother for my child (and understanding Mdm to my maid)?