It is coming to the 3rd month after I've stopped work. To be honest, I think I'm getting a little restless...and for the most of last month, I had to manage an emotional maid who had exhausted me mentally for a while.Sometimes, I wonder how this maid came into my household when I had decided not to ever have a maid again.I believe there must be a good reason and I need to trust God that this is the best arrangement for me and her (the maid).

Seriously I think I'm not made to be a "stay-at-home" mum. I run out of patience too quickly, I prefer to spend time with my computer than thinking of fun games to play with her or bring her out for excursions.Or maybe it's because of my pregnancy.I just prefer to "veg out" at home and lie on the bed than keep up with Eliza's boundless energy.

Perhaps all these could be my own expectations of what make a good mummy. To Eliza, she's probably happy that I'm just at home with her while she roams around with her toys.If this is so,then I will need to learn what it truly means to be a mum to my kids.